Denial Is A River

Album: Alligator Bites Never Heal (2024)
Charted: 9 21
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Songfacts®:

  • "Denial Is A River" is phrase popularized by the talk show host Wendy Williams, who was addressing a caller who caught her husband cheating on her... with a guy. The caller was clinging to the hope that her husband was merely bisexual, but Wendy set her straight, telling her, "Denial is a river in Egypt, your husband is gay." That clip became a meme and got Doechii's attention. She used it as the title of this song, where something similar happens to her: She finds out the guy she was dating was DL, with a guy on the side.

    Doechii says it's a true story, although embellished a bit. It happened back in 2019; she used her journal entries as source material when she wrote this song about it a few years later.
  • The song is structured as a therapy session, with Doechii playing the part of both the therapist and the patient. She often assumes various personas in her songs; in her viral hit from 2020, "Yucky Blucky Fruitcake," she's both the student and teacher.
  • The song is a showcase for Doechii's sharp wit, honed from lots of writing and delivered with an array of dextrous flows. Her wry sense of humor comes through as she raps about substance abuse, creative blocks, and a laundry list of exes who seem to have been sent by the devil, including one who trashed her home, racking up $100,000 worth of damage in the process. "Whoopsie, made a oopsie," she raps, somehow turning the catastrophic into comedy gold. "One-hundred thousand dollar 'oops' made me loopy."

    In a Rolling Stone interview she confirmed the story was true. "Man, people act crazy," Doechii said, with the weariness of someone who's seen enough for two lifetimes.
  • Doechii admitted to Rolling Stone the song was a challenging one to write. "I went through a period where I was afraid to be vulnerable in my music, which is odd for me because that's all I usually do," she said. "All I feel is sadness. I feel anger. I'm upset with everything and everybody. And my fans don't want to hear that." It was her engineer who pushed her to confront those feelings, reminding her that, sometimes, the best art isn't for the audience - it's for the artist."

    Still, she found a way to temper the darkness of the song with humor. "I think I made it funny so that it could be a bit easier to process," she explained.
  • The song's crisp production, courtesy of Ian James Beats (his first major placement), complements Doechii's storytelling with a beat that, like the lyric, has a lighthearted, jovial feel.
  • The music video - co-directed by Carlos Acosta and James Mackel - presents the track as a sitcom episode, complete with a star-studded cast. Comedians Zack Fox and Rickey Thompson add their brand of chaos, while guest appearances by artists like ScHoolboy Q, Teezo Touchdown and Baby Tate bring extra star power.
  • The song is part of Doechii's third album, Alligator Bites Never Heal. It was showered with critical acclaim, landing on Rolling Stone and Stereogum's Top 10 albums of 2024 and earning a Grammy nomination for Best Rap Album. The track "Nissan Altima" also got a nom for Best Rap Performance, and Doechii for Best New Artist.
  • Doechii signed to Top Dawg Entertainment in 2022 and had a big hit with "What It Is (Block Boy)" a year later. On that one, she sings, but she's primarily a rapper, as heard on "Denial Is a River."
  • At the end of the song, Doechii's therapist character suggests a breathing exercise to calm her down. When Doechii came up with this idea, she decided to put the breathing exercise into the song, but turn it into beatboxing, a nod to the classic hip-hop she loves. She admits she's not much of a beatboxer, but was trying to sound like Doug E. Fresh - she watched his old videos to see how he did it.
  • The line, "She didn't know about me and I didn't know about Sue" was originally "She didn't know about me and I didn't know about you." Doechii changed it to give it more flavor. The name Sue comes from a common saying in her home state of Florida, where a common greeting is "What's up Sue?" It's the equivalent of "What's good?"
  • Doechii sang "Denial Is A River" at the Grammy Awards in 2025, where Alligator Bites Never Heal took the prize for Best Rap Album. She was nominated for Best New Artist, which went to Chappell Roan.

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